Monday, June 16, 2014

Why I'm Still Smiling

I found out three weeks ago that I'd be losing my job.  The job that I took so we would have some security. The job that isn't what I wanted but what is what would allow us to settle nicely in our community, buy a little house and live our little lives. She didn't want to tell me alone so she had one of the deans come with her. I think she took it harder than I did. Seriously, bless her heart.

Sent this to my boss the other day when I was working from home. :)

I hate it when my plans are interrupted.  Of course, I've been down this particular road four times in the last two years at the same university.  The reason this time: funding cuts. Well, that's the first reason. The second reason is politics and truly, the budget cut wasn't about me or anything I have or haven't done. The university is overall sort of graceless, with some really nice, kind and loyal people interspersed throughout.  But mostly, they just don't have their stuff together.

I was offered another job- one that I helped create when I was on a committee this spring.  I'm pretty proud of my work on that committee too. And it was a great compliment to me that the job description was lifted directly from the report that I wrote (with credit too).  But ultimately, it's not what I want to do at this stage of my life. So I said no. G put it nicely. He said that it was time for me to recognize that while this is a nice place, I'm in a bad professional relationship and it's time to break up.  I agree.

So we're looking at packing and moving again.  I am tired of instability and I'm tired of feeling as though I am employed at the whim of people who do not know me, nor care one way or another about the predicament they leave me in.  I don't trust my university anymore.  I have a signed contract- guaranteeing me employment- and it did no good. That's all I'm going to say about it because I don't want to go down a bitter path.  Instead, G and I have decided that we'll take time and do a national job search. There isn't any place that's off limits, though we're more excited by Northern, cold climates than boiling Southern ones.  Like I said though, nothing is out of consideration.

I have a back up plan to teach full time at the university this next year while I look for something more suitable, so we're ok there.  The English department has been fantastic, absolutely fantastic.

So I'm still smiling. The weather is great- not too hot and not too cold.  Eleanor the kitty is in great health and seems to be more feisty every day, and G and I are both in good health.  Heck, everyone in our family is right now.  That may not seem like a big deal but to me it is.

Oh, and we had our second wedding anniversary a few weeks ago.  It was fun and we went hiking and even took a trip to Seattle to see the museum. G visited Trader Joes for the first time and we shopped till we dropped. It was a great day.

I'll keep you posted on the job situation. I haven't mentioned it to many people because I'm not in shock and I'm not really worried, just intent on doing the right thing.


  1. Thats it.... keep doing the right thing.

  2. Gotta love university employment. On June 28th, my contract with UCO ends. All of our planning has assumed that I will continue to be here after that date, but my boss has yet to receive her budget for next fiscal year, and cannot guarantee that. She says she wouldn't imagine they would cut my position from the budget, but they may make her open it up to larger applicant pool this time. I would LOVE to keep this job, but at the same time I cannot afford to be without a job for any period of time since I'm currently living paycheck to paycheck. It's a very frustrating situation.

  3. Doing the right thing and keeping a smile on your face when things don't go the way we planned. Great attitude. I believe everything will work out for you two. In times like these, the support of the one you love makes all the difference.

  4. Your decision is scary and brave, and I admire both of you for making it. I believe you'll find the right position, whether it's this year or next. Thanks for keeping us in the loop.

  5. You're like an undiscovered diamond. Someone is gonna get lucky to find you and then it will all be good. It's my opinion that this employer had been "unfaithful". They made big promises to get you there have not kept their word. I hope you and G can find someplace else that you absolutely both love, and put down roots. I love you both!! Keep us posted.

  6. That sucks they didn't have the funding. You were one of the best teachers that I had during my schooling at both CWU and CBC-- even if it was for my last quarter of college. I'm sure you'll find something that you will love.

  7. In the words of my favorite cartoon fish, "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming...." You are one of my favorite people. Everything will be okay.

  8. You're handling this with grace and dignity. I am proud to know you, Mindie. Fingers crossed your job search leads you back to OK!!!!!! Wherever your search ends, I hope you find peace, stability, and an overall feeling of "rightness with the universe". Love and miss you!!